In my school magazine that i joined , i'm the assistant of this awesome amazing girl ! She is such a great person ,,, we got closer and closer and I was so happy with her by my side helping me throught the magazine thing i was clueless and it was hard but she is awesome I love her !!!!
One Day i was too tired and it just came out i sent her on facebook :I've been throwing up my food lately :S
and the converstation went on and on .
To be honest ,, i used to sneaak food and i didn't do it like everyday ! But i was still doing it !!! By time my appetite was shrinking ,, I couldn't eat dinner ,, if i do i have to go throw it up ,,, after i eat every meal i felt naustious . This friend was completly awesome and supportive and been there for me ! So I had my ups and downs , i used to eat throw up ,.. not eat .... eat and not throw up ! untill i sed to eat only one meal per day but not throw it up .
One day the same friend calls me and admits : She tried this before , she stopped but now she's starving her self ,, but sommetimes throws up . I was like wow !! and she kept talking and talking to me and suddenlly we became very good friend and close friends ,,, call eachother everyday in the morning ,, check on each other if we ate and be there for eachother when one of use throws up .... and you'de think things are getting better right ?
WRONG !!! EACHONEOF US IS GETTING DEEPER AND EEPER IN HER OWN THING !
I got to a stage where i do it 4 time a day ,,,, if i drink milk i can't i have to go throw it up . and it and somewhere deep in me i kionda liked it,, u know i'm loosing weight,,,,,, at the same time i was helping a friend out of it ? I'M SUCH A HIPOCRTIE !!
untill on day she decides to go healthy and stop,,, i was so happy for her.. But no i'm fat i want to loose weight ==> it geting deeper and deeper for me .
I started eating less and less no meals only snacks and i do throw them up . I lost 20 lbs . I saw it in the beginning i saw how much i lost and kinda felt happy ,, then i lost it . I saw my self fat super faaat !! the way i was an di need to loose more and more and more .I had some help from a teacher and a friend we had a long talk and i decided to try to loose the rest in healthy way .
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